Friday, January 18, 2013

In this moment...

I had a sleep over last night with two of the most amazing people in my life and it was great. I graduate in 6 months time and most people would be focused on the new life ahead of them. Not me. I'm focused on what I will be missing...rather who I will be missing when it's all over. Isn't that sad?

I've never really had friends. I feel like I'm more of a friend to people than they are my friends. [If that makes sense]. Maybe it's because they like to share how they're feeling and I don't do the whole emotions stuff. For once in my life, I've finally found people outside my family who understand my silence, my different smiles, my sighs and snorts. They don't need me to express how I feel for them to know when to hug me and when to let go. They know that I take pictures for my blog but I'm far from vain and superficial. They know that I love God and they love Him just as much...or possibly more. They respect my individuality...my difference...

And in less than 6 months, I will not see this people every day again. It'd be when we can create time for each other because there's so much we all want to do. It's scary. These people keep me sane and do not judge me, even though they've seen me....all of me...let me rephrase that, some of me. [I haven't seen all of me yet, still discovering who I am]. And I guess, I'm finding it hard to imagine where I'd ever find these type of people again. Is that bad? 

You know, sometimes I sit down with them and we could just be having lunch or doing something silly and I just hear this whisper in my ears saying; right here...right now...you're where you ought to be...with these beautiful people.

Now I have this constant voice in my head saying; 'last lap'. You've got to move to the next phase of your life. Most people I know are excited. And I am too, but I'm also nervous...scared...of the next step I need to take. I read somewhere that I don't know what tomorrow might bring but I know the God that brings tomorrow and I trust His plans. That's where I'm at right now. Letting go of the wheel, so Jesus can take it. Moving into the passenger's seat so Jesus can be the driver. That's where I'm at. A point of complete surrender.

*Just thought to share this with you. I'd probably regret this in the morning. lol*

Lots of love,
Tomilola


17 comments:

  1. This has to be my favorite so far. The best is yet to come Tomi! Xoxo

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  2. God will always be with you. He brought you the wonderful group of friends you have presently, He'd do the same as you move on in life. He places people in our lives for a reason and He alone has the ultimate plan for our lives. So yeah, trust and believe that He knows best and will be by you wherever, whenever.
    - love and light.x

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  3. No regrets. This piece came from your heart, why regret?

    I love this though. It's well written and honest. Only God knows tomorrow. Live and love each moment. The best is yet to come! :)

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  4. this is a beautiful sentiment it's good to take time and really acknowledge how much your friends mean to you I wish I did that more before I graduated but in the absence of my friends I got to know God a little better and I hope the same for you

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  5. I'm like that, I'm always more of a friend to someone than they are to me. In the end, if they show how much they don't care about you, you have to let them go

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  6. This is beautiful Girl. And i pray that God continues to grant you the grace to finish the race well
    xx

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  7. I love dis! Kinda reminds me of myself :)

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  8. I totally understands that feeling, meet people that are like no others and thinking about saying goodbye is scaring and painful but as Seun said only God knows what tomorrow will be made of, just be thankful and rely on him. Also don't let fear and anxiety prevent you from enjoying the last moments.

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  9. "I don't know what tomorrow might bring but I know the God that brings tomorrow and I trust His plans"...heart-warming.

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  10. very lovely piece..just got here from another blog you commented on nice style uv also got..

    http://aomosale.blogspot.co.uk/

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  11. Would love to do a style star and feature your looks on my blog..If youre ok with that pls let me if its ok to take pictures from your blog..plus ild link back here...Thanks..

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  12. Thank you so much guys!! I really appreciate! @Shallie, that's cool, as long as you refer back to the blog! xx

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  13. here done! http://aomosale.blogspot.co.uk/2013/01/fashionably-conscious-tomilola.html

    you can have a look..take care..x

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  14. this actually looks/feels like something i wrote...funny part is i've been working on an appreciation post myself- real friends are to be treasured always. #muah#

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  15. i really can connect with you on thus.
    and it's amazing that I too an going through the same phase in my life, but I am learning to trust God, am learning to let go and let God...am still learning.
    visit me at rockingtherunway.blogspot.com

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I am so glad you're taking the time out to comment. It really does put a smile on my face ♥