I learnt how to say NO to thoughts that try to control me. (To be honest, I'm still learning this). Thoughts that say watch porn because you're horny or that nobody loves you so you should be depressed. I said NO by spending time in God's Word which reassured me that I am loved immensely and unconditionally (John 3:16) & that Jesus Christ died to free from the power of sin & therefore, sin has no power over me unless I let it (Romans 6)
Look, once you are remorseful and you ask God for forgiveness, He has forgiven you. (1 John 1:9) If after you do this, you still feel guilty, it is because you haven't forgiven yourself for that which Christ has forgiven you for. I learnt this year to stop beating myself up for things that's in the past. To forgive myself because God has forgiven me.
So this year, I had a lot of challenges and I had one very bad news that is still lingering in my life but guess what, I'm not bothered or worried. I know that God has got me. The storm may be raging but I am calm.
Moment of Honesty: God told me to do something and I was beating around the bush about it and I saw that someone else had started doing the thing. And then it hit me, if God gives you a job to do and you don't do it, He'll get someone else to do it. He is the only indispensable factor in getting that work done.
I listened to a lot of Afro beats music because I used to hitch a ride with my sister and that's all she wants to listen to. I don't know what you lot enjoy in afrobeats but that thing is just noise.
Ps. Davido is cute though so if i see him on TV, I can take the noise for a couple of minutes just to look at his face. LolI cannot do things that will hurt someone on purpose. I cannot cause others to stumble. I cannot be disobedient to my parents or those in authority. I cannot refuse to give when I have so much more. I could go on forever. I understand wanting to make ourselves happy but we need to realise that we weren't put on earth just for ourselves alone. We were put here for each other & to show the world God's glory.
Prior to this year, I wouldn't say I had big dreams. I don't even think I had dreams to be honest. But now, my dreams are so big, they scare me. I've come to realise, that is okay. These dreams are way bigger than me but not too big for God.
Can you imagine that? Lol. That's alright sha , everyone isn't my cup of tea either. You can't go through life trying to please everyone. You are not meant to. Some people are not going to like you and that is okay.
I learnt how to pray especially when I didn't feel like praying. I usually start off being really honest with God and saying something like "God, I don't feel like praying today to be honest but I know you like it when I do so here I am. Plus the desire to please you out weighs my not feeling like praying......" And before I know it, I'm proper having a conversation with God.
Bottom Line: Be honest with God. He already knows how you feel so no point pretending.
I cannot even consider myself a serious blogger after this year. Lol. But now that I'm blogging again, I have to say that I'm happier. I'm happy when you send me emails or leave me thoughtful comments. It humbles me and gladdens me at the same time. So thank you guys. (I have to stop now before I start crying. Lol)
I started growing breasts in 2006 or so and it seems like I've been wearing the same cup size forever. But this year, I went up a cup size. Can someone say "hallelujah"? So I guess, boobs actually grow if you're too busy with other positive stuff than worrying about whether or not they are growing.
Side Note: These new boobs are a bit annoying because I can't wear certain tops without feeling self conscious. Girls with D-cups and above, you are the real MVPs.I learnt that when something is really difficult to do, I could either sit down in my room and sulk or I can go out into the world and fight for what I want. People say "if it's meant for me, it will come to me". I believe that. I also believe that it is important to fight for what you want with faith and actions. That way if you don't get it, you'll know for sure it wasn't meant for you because you gave it your all.
Eyyyy. I have come a long way in my short time on earth and learnt a lot of things. But I realise, I still have so much more to learn.
In case you were wondering, I am wearing an Abaya that my mum got me from Dubai.
What did guys learn in 2014? I'd really like to know. Please share in the comments below.
Lots of love,